Before you start reading this I am sorry if it is a bit of a rant…I am stressed and need to offload. What better place to do that than here?

Okay, so I am getting pretty close to 30 weeks now and so far have had had a relatively stress free pregnancy. I have had little sickness and generally been feeling good.

Due to Husbands job, I knew we would be moving this Summer but have been able to stay relaxed as we are moving really close to my parents. Up until yesterday it looked as though it would all work out smoothly.

We were due to be in and settled before baby the baby is due in July…..perfect and just as I wanted it. My parents would be close for when I actually go into labour and would be able to look after the girls. Then afterwards they would be close enough to visit, maybe even help out if needed.

Then Husband comes home and says no its not going to work out like that after all. Not surprisingly  I am stressed!

We are still moving in the Summer but it looks like either I will go ahead first and move in whilst husband continues working here or we move after the baby is born…eitherway, we dont get much choice.

I am not sure what we are going to do.

You see we are a bit isolated where we live, cut off from the other families he works with. Everyone I do know has families of their own, there is no one I could call on in the middle of the night and my parents are 2 1/2 hours away! Worse though would be him missing the birth…and there is noone else I want as a birth partner.

Since he has told me I have been on the brink of breaking down. I have been unable to sleep,I am tearful and emotional, my heart has been racing and I have been experiencing stomach cramping. I think I am getting myself in a state.

I should have known it wasn’t going to work out as perfectly as I hoped!

I know I need to stay calm and concentrate on my family and the baby inside me but I feel sick.

I am ready to  move now and start the next chapter of our lives but instead am being held back. Its frustrating and I have no control over when the move happens. I hate these feelings especially as I am naturally quite a chilled and relaxed person!

Worse still Husband doesn’t really understand why I am so upset.

So heres why I am:

  • I am giving birth in approx 10 weeks but have no idea where we will be living or which Hospital it will happen at
  • I am concerned my Husband will miss the birth if he is here and I am in the new house 21/2 hours away
  • I am worried about what to do with the girls when I go into labour if here
  • I have this overwhelming need to settle before baby is born (nesting?)
  • I want to get the girls settled in the new house before the baby arrives
  • I am also worried about how all of this stress could effect the baby…it might make her really early
So that’s where we are up to. I am pregnant, moving and stressed. I feel out of control and there is nothing I can do about it. I am not happy! Apparently Husband has  a plan and I will know more later but for now this is what I know

Karen x