Right now I feel as if I am some crazy treadmill and I can’t get off. Somehow life has gone a bit chaotic, a constant stream of poorly girls, school and preschool drop offs and pick ups, playdates, ballet lessons and birthday parties. Then there is all the extra things you have to remember to take in to school at this time of year and all the assembly’s to watch. It’s probably much like life for most families with children these ages but right now I’m struggling.

I try my best to juggle it all plus cooking and cleaning, homework, listening to them read, reading to them and making sure they all have a bit of quality time with me…i’m exhausted just writing it all down – It’s non stop and because i’m so exhausted I don’t seem to be doing a very good job at any of it.

Oh on top of all of this I am a class rep, helping to get get ready for the Christmas Fair and help out in the school two mornings a week.

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How on earth do Mums that work do it all? I just don’t know.

I know I need to just stop, maybe cutback on after school stuff and make time for myself too but actually doing it isn’t easy. I’ve looked in the mirror recently and I look frazzled, worn out, shattered. It’s still three weeks until the Christmas holidays but that means getting organised for that too. So much to do! I need a holiday just thinking about it all. Wouldn’t that be nice? However,  finances aren’t permitting it right now.

Over the next few weeks I am going to have to make some time for me, calm down and slow down a bit, catch my breath. Yes there is lots to do but I need to be more organised about it all. Put everything on the calendar and enjoy the run up to Christmas.

Can I do it? Well i’m definitely going to try. I can’t go on like this and I want to go into next year feeling much more human. In the meantime roll on end of term and christmas holidays.

Karen x